Mark and I finally met our caseworker this morning. I've been speaking to her for months on and off over the phone. We had a great 2 hour meeting that included some further counseling about adoption. One thing that stood out to me is that adoption is based on LOSS. Our loss of a conceiving a child, the birthmother's loss of a child and the child's loss of his or her birthmother. I really don't feel a huge loss of my fertility and I'm wondering if I should. Mark and I did close the door on conceiving for now but we don't feel like it's a dead dream all together. I'm only 26 years old and there is no reason we shouldn't be able to try again (with medical intervention I'm sure) in the future. Hopefully I'll be more educated on this subject after I read "Adoption After Infertility" which I just started.
The only really overwhelming thing about this morning was that she had both of us fill out a form regarding our future child. We had to fill this out separately which was hard because there were several things I wanted to talk to Mark about before answering. Some of the things addressed are what we'd be open to in regards to: different races, birthparents with mental illnesses, a history of drug and alcohol use or abuse, etc. We have a lot of research and soul searching to do before we fill out the form again to be placed in our file and used by the caseworkers to pull profiles for birth parents.
We'll have a busy couple of weeks with fingerprints, background checks, physicals, more paperwork and questionnaires to fill out, etc. We meet with our caseworker separately in two weeks.
The ball is rolling!!! :)
Here's a cute picture of my Sophie girl that brings a smile to my face: