7.11.2008

Adoption Update

I know it's been a little while since I've specifically spoke of what is going on right now in our adoption journey. If you haven't read the history of our current match you can start by reading this post about the day we found out we were chosen and then this post about the day we found out the birthparents were strongly considering parenting.  

Over the last couple of weeks there have been changes on their end, and they are currently leaning toward adoption.  I am so aware that this can change quickly (notice it was a week in between posts last time) but we are definitely preparing ourselves right now for the possibility. She is due in 60 days and last night I realized it could definitely be before that. I spent some time with her at the hospital where she was monitored after falling.  She was contracting every 5 to 7 minutes! Yikes! Thankfully, with some good drugs, her contractions have stopped and baby is doing great. He's measuring 3 lbs 14 oz!  This next week I'll be going to a midwife appointment with her and they're doing an ultrasound! I can't wait to see the little guy!!

I still haven't found an emotional balance these last couple of weeks since we heard the "tides had changed." We need to try to be ready...practically, spiritually, financially, emotionally. BUT, we need to keep guarded hearts and have cautious optimism and understand that they can still change their minds.  It's surreal to think of having a baby turn our world around so soon...or maybe not... One thing I know for sure- the emotions will only run higher. I try to imagine the day she goes in to labor. The anticipation, the unknown if they will change their minds, the pain we'll feel for them if they do an adoption plan, the pain we'll feel if they don't, the excitement, the joy. Yikes. 

Mark remains skeptical that we will be parents in September. Maybe I should try his chill approach. Until we know more, we'll keep on working on the nursery and reading adoption and parenting stuff and try to prepare for the child we will have some day. Whether this specific child or another. Fortunately God is so big and He has a plan. Thank goodness.

On a lighter note (literally). I did go blonde and short!! Thanks for all that gave opinions. Here is a cheesy "after" pic for you:




12 comments:

ash said...

how fun! i wish darren would let me hack off my hair, i keep begging but he says i can only cut off more than 10 inches if it gets to my butt first!

lizeberspacher said...

i love the haircut--very sassy (although that may be due more to your temptress/diva expression). I miss my hair now that I cut it shorter--it just doesn't curl the same way anymore. Hey, we're going to be in L-town at the beginning of Aug. I know anything can happen, and I know summer is a crazy time for you, but if you're free, I'd love to hook up for coffee, etc.

km said...

Oh, yes, super fun! And I don't know how in the world you would ever be albe to balance your emotions with all that is going on! At least that's your focus and you know God is big and in control...that's all we need and about all we can do/handle. :)

jesshustad said...

I am so proud of you.

Sara said...

Looking FABULOUS darling :) We'll be around Lincoln this fall...can't wait to see you then! ♥love you and still praying...

Tracey said...

God hears you!

I love the hair!!

joy-filled said...

LOVE IT! Emily does such a great job! Lookin' good! Thanks for keeping us updated with the adoption!

Melba said...

Lovely new haircut, how adorable!! Glad to hear the update regarding adoption. I'm sure you must be all over the place with your feelings about everything that's going on. Even though you say you haven't found a good emotional balance, it sounds as though you are doing pretty well with what's happening.

GOOD LUCK, and keep us posted...I will keep you guys in my thoughts for sure!

Melba

Stacy Anderson said...

praying for you in the next couple of months as all this goes down however God intends.

LOVE THE HAIR!! :)

Rebekah said...

Great new do...Yeah on the baby...hear you on the "guarded" front. In our 2 short months of adoption process we have had 3 potential birth moms (all outside our agency because we're not approved yet)cross our path. So far NONE of them have worked out. The first one I was giddy with excitement, the second one I was more reserved but still had thoughts of baby, the last...well, I pretended like the opportunity didn't even exist. It's the only survival mechanism I have. Stay guarded for sure.

Nancy said...

Hi Ashley, I found your site through Melba. It is really wonderful to hear from others who are going through the same things. It sounds like you're going through a difficult time right now, but all you can do is wait and hope things will turn your way. It's an emotional time.

becklaw said...

I am the worst friend for not texting you back the other night. I need to call you sometime, but I never know when. So I came to catch up on your blog. I freakin' LOVE the hair! I'm getting my highlights touched up here on Friday since we're leaving for Hawaii in just over a week. I miss you SO stinkin' much. Let's talk soon!