Over the last couple of weeks there have been changes on their end, and they are currently leaning toward adoption. I am so aware that this can change quickly (notice it was a week in between posts last time) but we are definitely preparing ourselves right now for the possibility. She is due in 60 days and last night I realized it could definitely be before that. I spent some time with her at the hospital where she was monitored after falling. She was contracting every 5 to 7 minutes! Yikes! Thankfully, with some good drugs, her contractions have stopped and baby is doing great. He's measuring 3 lbs 14 oz! This next week I'll be going to a midwife appointment with her and they're doing an ultrasound! I can't wait to see the little guy!!
I still haven't found an emotional balance these last couple of weeks since we heard the "tides had changed." We need to try to be ready...practically, spiritually, financially, emotionally. BUT, we need to keep guarded hearts and have cautious optimism and understand that they can still change their minds. It's surreal to think of having a baby turn our world around so soon...or maybe not... One thing I know for sure- the emotions will only run higher. I try to imagine the day she goes in to labor. The anticipation, the unknown if they will change their minds, the pain we'll feel for them if they do an adoption plan, the pain we'll feel if they don't, the excitement, the joy. Yikes.
Mark remains skeptical that we will be parents in September. Maybe I should try his chill approach. Until we know more, we'll keep on working on the nursery and reading adoption and parenting stuff and try to prepare for the child we will have some day. Whether this specific child or another. Fortunately God is so big and He has a plan. Thank goodness.
On a lighter note (literally). I did go blonde and short!! Thanks for all that gave opinions. Here is a cheesy "after" pic for you: