I have crazy dreams. Last night, in dreamland, we won the lottery and I was thrilled. If you knew my stance on the lottery you'd know I wouldn't ever want to win one. I firmly believe you change, the people around you change and your life changes--more for the bad than good. My husband and I disagree on this but, regardless, that's how I feel. So when we won (in my dream) I was thrilled. I quit working and concentrated on my photography. My husband quit working and went to school full time to get a physics degree. The dream got odd was when we chose our first big "spend" to be international adoption. Not a house (which I'd love a bigger house + yard), not a car, no big vacay. We wanted to adopt internationally and, now that money was no issue, we wanted to pursue that immediately.
I have a serious problem with this dream. Why in the crap does international adoption have to be so expensive? I'm mad about it. There are costs incurred no doubt but why $25,000+?! There are so many loving families that can not wait to add to their families through adoption and they can not afford to do so. As Declan started to near 2 years old we had the "domestic vs international" talk severals times. My heart burst when I think of children in orphanages waiting for a family. We deeply desire to adopt internationally and hope in the future that may financially be in our cards. Until then, I will sulk over my dream and hope that some day- maybe someday- adoption will be more affordable.