and so we wait. and wait.

Last May we turned paperwork in to our agency for adoption #2. We were excited but unsure we were quite ready to add to our family. Fast forward to today. We are SO ready for Declan to have a little brother or sister yet we sit and wait. Nothing has happened with our home study since turning in the initial papers in May. No meetings with a caseworker, no fingerprints, no background checks, nothing.

Fortunately March 11th is our next step. I say fortunately because I am not known for my patience. It seems like we've been waiting for-ever. Oh, yeah, because we have. We pray and believe that God knows who our next child will be. There are so many days I trust His plan for my life and there are definitely days where I just want to take the reins and "get things going" (such a weak heart, for sure).

When Declan came along, I forgot the majority of the physical and mental pain of infertility. As a mother life has still been peppered with many reminders- those "oops" pregnancies I hear about, the constant comparisons people make with their children (oh, he totally looks like so and so, etc), and now- the pain rises again. We can't just say, let's try for #2 and excitedly wait each month watching for those 2 pink lines. We have zero control over how quickly we're moved through our home study.

So we wait. And wait.

In our waiting I pray for a deeper faith. God definitely exceeded our expectations with Declan.  Pretty sure His plan with blow our socks off again.  Patience...patience...patience.